God's Rainbow

God's Rainbow

Rainbows appear after mighty storms,
When things look their very worst,
Just when the skies are darkest gray,
Look for the rainbow first. 

The rainbow is a sign of God's promise, 
That He will guide us through any storm, 
That He will see us through all our troubles, 
No matter what their form. 


When you feel battered by life's storms, 
And you are filled with doubt and dismay; 
Just remember God's rainbow is coming - 
It's only a prayer away. 

- Author Unknown 

The sun promises a brighter day yet sometimes it fails...
But God promises a beautiful life and He never fails...

Pain

I am a loser when it comes to pain. I can't tolerate pain well. You'll find me running around for plaster for my paper cut. 

I finally understood, 

the pain of having cuts on your flesh

is nothing compared to

the pain of having a cut on your heart. 

That excruciating pain. When I see them lying at that wooden box. When I see that wooden box being lowered to the ground. It breaks my heart, for not able to tell you 'Thank you' for being my friend'. For not accomplishing our plans to have our birthdays and backpacking together..

Oh God, I need You to be that Plaster, to heal my wounded heart. 

No one can touch my heart like You do.. 
I'm learning to cherish everyone You sent to my life, God. 

I'm gonna live my life to the fullest for You, my Master.

Dear Uncle Roland, Jacinth, Jelyn

Uncle Roland has been a great blessing to the young generation. He has raised 'Leaders of Tomorrow' and faithful man and woman of God who live their lives for Jesus Christ. Scholars are blessed with full scholarships because of His fervent prayer and guidance. He is like the candle that shines in the dark, giving hope and confidence to students to challenge their abilities in performing outstandingly. He has assisted me in obtaining my scholarship. I remembered how he was so anxious in knowing everyone's results, his concern for each youth to excel best inn their academics. Truly, he has been an inspiration to us all. He's strict yet soft-spoken in his own special ways. Uncle Roland, I truly salute you, for being a Man of God's destiny, a great father, a remarkable teacher, a faithful friend...

Jacinth, we are often so passionate about Delima in Convent. How we BOOooo to the other teams.. Your quiet and sweet in your own ways. The last time we met was when Joash, you and I were going round KL to get a replacement of your faulty Digi modem. I remembered how adoringly you and your brother were, that teasing and giggling here and there. I know you are in love with Korean guys.. hee hee.. 

Jelyn, you're so sweet and gentle. I was hoping hard that you could join Delima, so we could have our Delima girls conquering the youth. I remembered at Pastor Betty farewell, whereby we had a ball match. "Hey girl, you're really a sportswoman". You are so petite, but you put the guys to shame that night with your accurate throwing skills to the tree and the stamina you had. Both of you are just so sweet, and your contagious smile that brightened the day. 

Till we meet again, in Heaven along with our Heavenly Dad!! ;)

Dear Joash,

Everyone was grief-strickened and saddened by your death, Uncle Roland, Jacinth and Jelyn plus your Grandma. I guessed Heaven is having shortage of angels, that's why God is recruiting the best of all and whom he deeply loves.

You had been a supportive brother in Christ, a great friend.

I remember the 'Great Job' pat you gave on my back each time I did well in drama sketch for Christmas and worship.I remembered serving together in Christ Ignitors. From Chinese New Year fund raising, Christmas Celebration, mothers day celebration... etc

I remember how you and Kevin used to drop by at Music Valley to disrupt my work and disturb the girls.

I remember you giving me weird nicknames like 'Elephant' and 'Aunty Carol' or 'High Distinction'. Though I called you 'Tortoise' for eating super super slow and 'High High High Distinction' for being so brilliant.

I admire how patient you are towards the weak. How you love them..

I will also remember your big, generous heart. You insisted on paying everytime, until that day I have to snatch your wallet to stuff money inside which left the waiter staring at us.

I will remember your optimism in everything. When we got lost in Malacca before Family camp, I was literally panicking while you are appreciating Malacca scenery at night.

I remember how I complaint about you wearing the red Ah Pek shirt.

I remember you said my masterpiece was the nicest!!

I  remember you for keep forcing me to eat. You made me gorged down brownies, cakes, breads, desserts. Not fair! You make your gf so slim, yet you make me fat!!

You are a horrible shopper, ending up buying rotten stuff like the Chinese New Year oranges, the marigold yogurt drink, end up gotten nagged by me.

You carry joy with you wherever you go. Your million-dollar smile.Your joke of the year. Your 'cheekiness'.You always Stand out from photographs.

You are my 'Makan' buddy and my 'escort' to go back to Muar.

You left me blur, searching for words in the dictionary each time you blast out your bombastic vocabulary.

You always put others first and God above all.

You will be deeply missed. I gonna bring more friends to Heaven to meet my Buddy, which is You!

I believe you are rejoicing with God and your family up there. Jamming with the best musical instrument, singing praise to God, with the angels as your choir. Feasting at His Table with a large spread of food. You will never missed any ball while playing tennis, because you have wings to fly as high to catch it. I'm grateful to God that I get to meet a great friend like you for 21 percent of your 23 years.

PS: I bet you are smiling away in Heaven, with everyone praising you... hee hee =)

Happie Birthday, Bloggie!!

Happy 1st Birthday!!

It's been a year of blogging..

Thought of changing to a new direction..

Trust in Him

When you say, "I can't solve this."

God tells you, "I will direct your path." (Proverbs 3:5-6)

When you say, "It's impossible."
God tells you, "Everything is possible." (Luke 18:27)

 When you say, "I feel all alone."
God tells you, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." (Hebrews 13:5)

 When you say, "I can't do it."
God tells you, "I can do everything through him who gives me strength." (Philippians 4:13)

When you say, "I don't deserve forgiveness."
God tells you, "I have forgiven you." (Romans 8:1)


When you say, " I am afraid."
God tells you, "Do not fear, for I am with you; I will strengthen you and help you." (Isaiah 41:10)

When you say, "I am tired."
God tells you, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." (Matthew 11:28-30)

 When you say, "No one really loves me."
God tells you, " I love you." (John 13:34)

When you say, " I don't know how to go on."
God tells you, " I will show you the path." (Psalm 32:8)

 When you say, "What path does God have for me?"
God tells you, "My Beloved Son Jesus Christ." (1Timothy 2:5)


--Author Unknown

That's the way, Malaysia!

I spend the last few days, stoning in front of the TV for the most anticipating Thomas Cup. The living room was my stadium, the beating of my heart were the drums and the pillows were the other spectators. It was a breakdown, a grief-strickening moment when Japan slammed down our team with 3-2, especially our intense desire of repeating the historic victory back in 1992. The players were obviously drained out of stress during the horrendous battle.

But boy!, they did an outstanding performance yesterday, battling against Denmark by 3-2. The team appeared to be 'Stronger than Yesterday' despite of the unexpected failure. Thanks to our world’s player, LCW not forgetting KKT and TBH in building the victory momentum to blaze the fighting spirit. The fighting spirit was so evident. Even though, WCH and the other double players were at the losing end, they fought to the very end. ‘To give up’ was never a solution. Hafiz is back in the game, sprinting as the Hero of the sweet victory, placing Malaysia in semi-finals.

A great game, I would say.

Well, Malaysia is grinding our weapons for the next combat, setting up a tough clash with the reigning champion China. Based on Thomas Cup 1998 Jakarta, China won 3-2. Lin Dan was shocked by LCH after LCH won in straight game.

We shall see. China or Malaysia??

I’m crazily cheering for Malaysia... Doesn’t matter win or lose; it is about believing in the nation you’re living in.

What is happiness??

One day, the young lion asked his mom: "Mom, where is the happiness?"
Mom replied: "It's on your tail."


So the young lion keeps on chasing after his tail. But after a whole day of trying, he failed to get the happiness that was on his tail.


Then he told his mom about this, his mom smiled and said: "Son, you don't really need to chase after your happiness, as long as you keep going and moving forward, your happiness will always be with you."

I am unconditionally and irrevocably in love with it

I stepped into the library, day-in and day-out.

I checked through online the status of that particular book since yesterday.

I have been browsing through the library shelves meticulously, in case I missed out that black-printed book.

I read the book that I was anticipating in an open-book website.

I have never felt this way before towards any other books.

I could not put the book down for a minute, I literally eat with it, sleep with it, listening to lectures with it..It is therefore, a Confession,

that I'm officially obsessed with it..

I am
unconditionally,
irrevocably
in love
with
a fictional book.
Twilight Saga

Hemophobia

During childhood times, I was like a Magnet welcoming accidents ranging from bleeding, wounds, swollen and ext. Blood to me was nothing. But a recent activity has brought me to discover my weakness of fearing bloods. It is called Hemophobia (hee-mo-fo-bee-ya).

My uni was having this Blood Donation Drive in the concourse. Everyone was so exhilarated, talking over about the drive, their first ever experience donating blood and the ‘theoretical factors’ of an eligible donor. I, myself was keyed up about the drive in wanting to contribute something to the society.

As I was walking with my group of boisterous friends towards the drive, deep inside I felt something was wrong, I mean something went wrong. I really don’t feel good. From afar, one glance of that red thick, drops dribbling into that transparent plastic packet has triggered my body entire system. My legs turned jelly out of a sudden. The butterflies in my tummy was flying and racing in full speed restlessly. My head felt dizzy when the smell of rust and salt blended with a strong smell of sterilized clinical equipment wafted through my nostrils. I was clutching my friend tight as the nurse effortlessly inserted the needle right through the skin. The sight of the blood drive awakens my inner voice. “Can you do it, Carol?” it whispered. A ray of thoughts ran through my mind. I was visualizing myself sitting on the chair, squashing the ball to assist the blood flow. Blood flowing out of my veins into the tube and into the transparent plastic packet. “Come out, you can do it!”

My rational thoughts wrestled with my emotions, my little courage. My friends were filling the forms. For me, I can’t even hold the pen straight as my hands were literally shaking. Finally, I chickened Out!! Cowardice, I told myself. Many threw up and had fainting spells after donating. Since I was not, I was the ‘Nurse of the Day’, providing tissues and hot drinks.

I really wanted to donate, but I guessed that day was not the right time. I shall donate once I’m ready overcoming that fear, fear of blood.

PS: Do donate as it benefits the donor and the recipient. =) cheers